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Hii..monthly update..

hey internet peoples, whats up? its been a minute. I find is easier to type this shit up monthly, because of all the shit that happens in my life being easier to manage and junk. anyways, heres whats been going on with me.

i cant remember if i mentioned her name last time, but i havent talked to my friend since that argument we had. i still feel bad. after all time thime, a little letter feels ridiculous, you know? i miss her, of course, but ive felt pretty fine without her, so im not too broken up about it. Ive actually become alot closer with the people that i was defending in that original argument, which feels awesome. literally today i stayed at the library with them until 7pm. that felt important. i love having people to be close with. it makes everything feel a little more bearable.

ive been trying to do alot better in school, but i already fucked myself over so there isnt any real point until january. i mean, right now i have fnals and shit--my first one being tomorrow--but you know what i mean. its hard to build myself up out of that hole without a total reset. my friends have been AMAZING with helping me out and motivating me and junk, i love them so much.

speaking of friends, i befriended lots of freshmen recently. i mean, that sounds creepy, but they are so adorbs and i love them so much. they seriously get my soul (and my weird types in girls/guys.) speaking of weird types, someone needs to slap me and tell me to STOP trying to talk to people and care about myself. i cant have both. ive been feeling so awful emotionally recently i think im going to have to break it off with my little talking stage. that seriously sucks.